Yeah, i know i shld be studying. But yeah, she smsed farewell. And maybe she's right. i'm just not good enough to be her friend because she said she trusted me the most and yet i'm always letting her down. Yes... thinking of it, i agree.
I couldnt have agreed more, i'm a jerk. Not good enough to be friends of many.
Reasons were obvious of why i'm upset, as its because she was my best friend, a friend whom we had nothing hidden, everything shared together for the past 2 yrs, which we were closer than bread and peanut butter.
Yup, thats wad i called TRUE friends, not one who anyhow bomb say friends for 7yrs yet, only give bullshit and problems.
7 years, i can say i'm always the big brother. always helping him, when he's in trouble, when he's down, when he's needy. when he made mistakes, who help him cover, who didnt say a thing when he watch porn in sch? lol. who rather let him have the rank(ssgt)cum crossbelt and go show off while the other see his friend being happy is enough? who talked to him, who's being there as a friend when NOBODY likes him? when everyone outcass him, who stand by him? WHO. who's always the stronger one, who teaches him so much things? and who is really there for who? And when a 7yr friend got gf, who went MIA for so long and only calls when he needs help? tsk. wad is friendship if thats the case. Nahh. just turns into hi bye. Judging others when you're unholy yourself just turns me off, get a life, get a mirror.
Yet, i dare to say, i treasure those who are truthful in the heart, 2yrs, or even 3 days friendship rather than these bullshit.
We all have countless of friends in our life, but only real true ones hang on, are you one of them? Time wouldnt tell, but effort put in will .. : )
I'm pretty upset, those that i would want to treasure , yet i couldnt. Be it retribution but i dont believe in it. As it means, i'm believing in the devil. which is a nono. I'll stand up strong once again, its just a matter of time, and i know it. I just need some quiet time for myself once again : D
takecare and farewell , all : )