Its been long but you're still here, faithful old pal. It seems that whenever i'm low and down, i'll come back to you. But no matter how long, how far, about what or anything, you're still here. Awww (:

I missed youuuu (:

These few days, mum went for checkup at SGH went for some ultra sound scan, and she became very emo and depressed over it.

Finally, she talked and said, while doing halfway, the nurse who help her scan, was looking at the screen, then said :" you better go find your doctor." Or something like that, because she was speaking in a very fast tone and went off afterthat.

Because while doing ultra scan, her main doctor dont need to be there, but just need the report, so letting others to do the scan and finish the report before handing up to the doctor was normal.

So on that day, she didnt get to see her report. Or the least, her doctor. So she was worried like no tomorrow. ( touch wood )

Tmr might be the day she would go back and meet her doc on a special appoinment made and maybe discuss about what happened about the scan or anything. My fingers are crossed.

Seeing her this way really breaks my heart, but as a son, i've got to act strong and telling her thats rubbish! Its not a bad sign, just that the nurse dunno whats going on, inexperience or no use. Useless. Tmr i'm going fire her.

But deep down, its not easy. Its my mum i'm talking to about. Its an illness that my grandmother had. Might be passed down through generations ( heredity ).

Hearing about it really bring tears to my heart.

Dear God,
all i want is to shorten my own life to lengthen my parent's , nothing else.

Because tonight

junhao
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LOVE MOVIES.
FUCKING STRAIGHT.
I'M WHAT YOUR MUM WARNED ABOUT.
YOU DONT WISH TO KNOW ME. SERIOUSLY.

Will be the night

..seasons are changing
..and waves are crushing
..and stars are falling all for us
..days grow longer and nights grow shorter
..i can show you i'll be the one.

That i will

fall for you

over again.