FAMOUS LAST WORDS.

.Sunday, June 29, 2008 ' 4:00 AM

The news is out.

Sighhh. My mum's liver isnt in such a good condition, some 3cm lump growing inside. As i've said before, its heredity. Passed down from my grandma, and maybe my great grandma. My uncles, aunties are not in very good health too.

3cm. Thats like wtf. bloodybig. imagine putting a 50cent coin in ur liver? Sigh.

I dunno wad i'm thinking, how shld i feel too. I'm like cornering myself off to this world. To 98.7221% of my friends and people surrounding me. Including close ones and all. Forgive me peeps, i need time alone. Its not i dunwan to reply anyone's smses and calls, i just got no mood to do anything, to say anything.

how do i say? Sigh, my mum is my closest THING to me? You can shout, beat scold kill me, but dont u dare bully my mum. This is how much i treasure her. But i still always make her angry. Its so contradicting. fuck you jh.

When i was 10years old, my ahma (father's side) came over to my house and scolded my mum, shouted damn loud and scary, they both were like wwII ? When my ahma stand up like wanna be fierce than my mum, i run in and chap and shouted at my ahma to get lost and fuck off, in my hand holding a kitchen knife?
lol. Then my ahma, raise her hand and wanted to slap me, my mum shouted back, YOU DARE!? lol.

In my 20 yrs old, on my first trip to macau in the plane. We were sitting at the second row of the plane, there's this china guy with his son sitting directly infront of my seat, then while halfway thru the journey, he started to push his chair backwards, tilt it in a very comfortable position for him, but super uncomfortable for the behind person. Just our luck that we're seated behind him?

So i spoke to him nicely, saying in chinese :" Sir, do you mind moving back your seat to orginal position because its very uncomfortable for us?"

he replied angrly, :" No, the chair is designed in this way for me to use." Then after he said that, his son, followed his action and push the chair back and its his luck that i'm behind him? I kick the chair so hard that the chair move backed to orginal position. His son is 13-15 btw. Then the china man angrily stood up, facing us, with the whole plane watching and shouted at me and my mum?

Wad was he thinking? we're easy to bully? I stood up, shouted back louder at him? LOL! Whole plane was watching. ard 50-70 people if i'm not wrong?

His face changed, and said abit nicer this time, scared tat i'll throw a punch or two at him? Then came his son, standing up, holding a magazine, shouted, then threw it at my mum sitting down. I exploded. Grab him by his shirt in one hand lifting him up and pushed his father away with the other arm when he tried to stop me, he fell.

I SHOUTED in his fucking face to apologise to my mum, he was shaking, didnt want too, i shouted another 2 times before i almost slammed him against the plane window, with everyone looking of cos. He didnt, i pushed him backwards, hitting the wall of the plane. His tears dropping. His father stood up and said sorry to me. I shouted back, asking him to apologise to my MUM instead. He did, and i asked him to ask his kid to apologise to my mum, he didnt want but gave in when his father scolded him, not to hit people first, because he's in the wrong. In the end he did.

Not trying to say anything about me? But trying to say, how impt my mum is to me, and i wouldnt let anyone bully her? Maybe only me? lol.

So when the news came, its like wtf feeling to me. And knowing that my friend's father got livercancer, fainted in the toilet and sent to TTSH, its also another piece of saddening news.

This is life, at many times i felt like giving it up.

Dear Lord, on my knees, can you hear my prayers?